At any rate, I have all my life, as it were, turned my eyes away and never could look people straight in the face.) To blame, finally, because even if I had had magnanimity, I should only have had more suffering from the sense of its
uselessness. I should certainly have never been able to do anything from being magnanimous--neither to forgive, for my assailant would perhaps have slapped me from the laws of nature, and one cannot forgive the laws of nature; nor to forget, for even if it were owing to the laws of nature, it is insulting all the same.
When the folly as well as the
uselessness of the adventure was pointed out to him, he contented himself with replying, "If the thing is feasible, the first to do it ought to be an Englishman."
This appeal is not always a charm, for there are estuaries of a particularly dispiriting ugliness: lowlands, mud- flats, or perhaps barren sandhills without beauty of form or amenity of aspect, covered with a shabby and scanty vegetation conveying the impression of poverty and
uselessness. Sometimes such an ugliness is merely a repulsive mask.
Without touching upon its
uselessness in all points of view, he regarded the experiment as fraught with extreme danger, both to the citizens, who might sanction by their presence so reprehensible a spectacle, and also to the towns in the neighborhood of this deplorable cannon.
The chief steward, a very stupid but cunning man who saw perfectly through the naive and intelligent count and played with him as with a toy, seeing the effect these prearranged receptions had on Pierre, pressed him still harder with proofs of the impossibility and above all the
uselessness of freeing the serfs, who were quite happy as it was.
He talked and looked at her laughing eyes, which frightened him now with their impenetrable look, and, as he talked, he felt all the
uselessness and idleness of his words.
Her paroxysms of exhilaration, followed by a gnawing sense of failure and
uselessness, were known to her mother only as "wildness" and "low spirits," to be combated by needlework as a sedative, or beef tea as a stimulant.
Campbell knew the
uselessness of any prevarication with an Indian; and the importance of complete frankness.
He shrugged his shoulders in token, not of consent, but of surrender, knowing the
uselessness of attempting to argue the question with her, and consoling himself with the reflection that heaven alone knew what adventures she was liable to engage in if left alone on Berande for a week.
Then, recollecting the utter
uselessness of contention with such a nature, she shut her lips resolutely, gathered herself up, and walked out of the room.
She was conscious of his aim, and in her better moods endured his efforts placidly, only showing their
uselessness by now and then suppressing a wearied sigh, and checking him at last with the saddest of smiles and kisses.
She saw the
uselessness of resisting him any longer; and, taking the candle, went before him upstairs.