Something impelled him to go to the studio, some obscure desire for self-torture
, and yet he dreaded the anguish that he foresaw.
He forgot for the moment his maxim of life to follow his inclinations with due regard for the policeman round the corner; or, if he acted in accordance with it, there must have been some strange morbidity in his nature which made him take a grim pleasure in self-torture
Because I foresee it will not end well; you can never carry on this self-torture
There had been mad wilful rejections, monstrous forms of self-torture
and self-denial, whose origin was fear and whose result was a degradation infinitely more terrible than that fancied degradation from which, in their ignorance, they had sought to escape; Nature, in her wonderful irony, driving out the anchorite to feed with the wild animals of the desert and giving to the hermit the beasts of the field as his companions.
Mediaevalism, with its saints and martyrs, its love of self-torture
, its wild passion for wounding itself, its gashing with knives, and its whipping with rods - Mediaevalism is real Christianity, and the mediaeval Christ is the real Christ.
After a fortnight of self-torture
, I have decided to do just that.
May 197 Responding to unnamed articles in The New York Times and the Village Voice that said dancers were basically accepting self-torture
as a sacrifice for their art, dance kinesiology pioneer Raoul Gelabert argued that pain was not inevitable for dancers.
Yet you obviously became addicted to complexities, to self-torture
, to sweat, blood, and tears.
Plodding through self-torture
, Valerie stumbles over the last line: "You and everyone in the television business can't see me as desirable, but there are plenty of men out there who would still want to fuck an old lady like me.
We can't resist, even though it's pure self-torture
as we sit on deck chairs, with a clapped-out banger out front and a rickety old hoover with one wheel to do the cleaning.
Indeed, there seems to be no bottom when it comes to mental self-torture
Protect the Coven" was too macabre with killing scenes, cold-blooded torture and self-torture