But what is the attitude of the self-murderer toward his/her projected death, what is his/her psychiatric state when he/she makes his death project onward?
The death that the person of the self-murderer wants is thought and imagined more like pertaining to his/her body that, in the melancholic, became a body-object.
The self-murderer falls into an endless abyss that deepens by the sinking movement itself, that opens under and inside his/ her being from the moment of falling into despair.
If death is absurd for the living ones, the self-murderer seeks to give it a sense, an ultimate sense.
The self-murderer plays the fatal play, in a double role, actor and onlooker, at the same time.
The self-murderer perceives the lived time in a peculiar mode.
The living "inside the self" of the self-murderer remains a mystery most of the time.
The self-murderer leaves a disaster after him/her (Bowlby 1991).
There will always be a doubt about the degree of guilt of the entourage, the fatal gesture of the self-murderer will leave an indelible psychiatric trauma on those who loved him.
In addition, Lederer has also patiently sifted the minutes of Bavaria's Aulic Council (Hofrat), which investigated over three hundred suicides between 1611 and 1670 trying to determine whether these "self-murderers
" were compos mentis (Lederer has already published five articles in German and one in English about suicide in Bavaria ).