Something impelled him to go to the studio, some obscure desire for self-torture
, and yet he dreaded the anguish that he foresaw.
He forgot for the moment his maxim of life to follow his inclinations with due regard for the policeman round the corner; or, if he acted in accordance with it, there must have been some strange morbidity in his nature which made him take a grim pleasure in self-torture
"Because I foresee it will not end well; you can never carry on this self-torture
There had been mad wilful rejections, monstrous forms of self-torture
and self-denial, whose origin was fear and whose result was a degradation infinitely more terrible than that fancied degradation from which, in their ignorance, they had sought to escape; Nature, in her wonderful irony, driving out the anchorite to feed with the wild animals of the desert and giving to the hermit the beasts of the field as his companions.
Mediaevalism, with its saints and martyrs, its love of self-torture
, its wild passion for wounding itself, its gashing with knives, and its whipping with rods - Mediaevalism is real Christianity, and the mediaeval Christ is the real Christ.
But they know better than you do, apparently, that you've embraced self-torture
as your guiding principle in life.
Entrepreneurship is not self-torture
. It is really meant for people who have no other options or choose to have no other options.
Paris seems to hold promise, but rather than finding his footing in the circles of Paris literati, most of whom bore or even disgust him, he is drawn into the self-torture
of his own repressed homosexuality.
May 197 Responding to unnamed articles in The New York Times and the Village Voice that said dancers were basically accepting self-torture
as a sacrifice for their art, dance kinesiology pioneer Raoul Gelabert argued that pain was not inevitable for dancers.
Yet you obviously became addicted to complexities, to self-torture
, to sweat, blood, and tears.
We can't resist, even though it's pure self-torture
as we sit on deck chairs, with a clapped-out banger out front and a rickety old hoover with one wheel to do the cleaning.
Indeed, there seems to be no bottom when it comes to mental self-torture
. But for victims of body dysmorphic disorder, it's especially worse for they are trapped in superficiality and somewhat unhinged at that.